Team India opener Murali Vijay admitted that he had a bad tour of England but went on to add that the constant cropping and changing didn’t help his confidence.Vijay was a complete shadow of his former self in England and failed to play a single solid innings in the two Test matches he played on the tour. While he smashed 402 runs from five matches at an average of 40.20 four years back, this year, he only scored 26 runs from four innings including twin ducks in the second Test at Lord’s.Following his dismal show in the second Test match, Vijay was dropped for the third game and then left out of the squad for the last two Tests at Southampton and The Oval.Murali Vijay’s debut century in county cricket helps Essex beat NottinghamshireSpeaking about his form in England, Vijay said that his performances were not that great but the constant shuffling created some doubts in his mind.”Anyone who doesn’t get to play regularly will have some doubts. When you shuffle a lot, there will definitely be certain thoughts in the back of your mind over your spot but the team-management had a different way of looking at things. And when you are part of the team, you have to contribute to the overall cause because that is what matters in the end. You are always judged on the performances. Unfortunately, I didn’t have them,” Vijay was quoted as saying by The New Indian Express.Murali Vijay scores 56 for Essex after Test series failure vs EnglandadvertisementAfter the snub, he stayed back in England and decided to play county cricket with Essex, where he was a completely different batsman altogether. Displaying his old class and hunger for runs, the Tamil Nadu batsman amassed 323 runs from innings, hitting one century and three fifties.And, he says that scoring runs for Essex after a mediocre run in challenging conditions was a good learning experience for him.”Conditions were tough for batsmen. It was no doubt one of the most challenging conditions. Even the English batsmen struggled to make runs and it is the same with our middle-order as well. None of us could support Virat (Kohli), which is why the defeat hurt a lot. After the Tests, I wanted to see where I stood and Essex was good learning curve for me to score those important runs again,” said Vijay, who will now represent Tamil Nadu in the Vijay Hazare Trophy.He also opened up on the snub for the West Indies series as this was the last opportunity for him to get back into the fold of things ahead of the Australia series, where India will play four Tests.The MSK Prasad-led selection panel also decided to keep Shikhar Dhawan out of the Test squad and draft in Mayank Agarwal alongside KL Rahul and Prithvi Shaw for the openers spot for the two Tests versus West Indies.Vijay said that what has happened has happened and he hopes to score runs and get back into the scheme of things for the future.”At the end of the day it is the performance that counts. The past doesn’t matter and it is for others to judge if I deserved to be in the side or not. I’m playing this sport because it gives me joy and that is what I look forward to the most. Ups and downs are part of a cricketer’s career. I have gone through this before,” said.After the two Tests against West Indies in Rajkot and Hyderabad, India will play five ODIs and three T20Is against them. After the tour is over, India will travel Down Under to take on Australia in three T20Is, four Tests and three ODIs from November 21 to January 18.